I must apologize for taking so long to write this blog post. I usually try to do one every week, but if you could be a fly on the wall of my life, you would totally understand.
After all, this blog is called Life, love and Miracles …
…in the past two weeks I have been privileged to witness many MIRACLES all because of God’s LOVE for us and our LOVE for others and this … is LIFE!
Most of it is unfortunately way too personal to impart (although I do hope to write testimonies for those who are willing to share) however, I will give a brief overview so that you can be encouraged by how amazingly God is on the move – if you are willing to let Him move.
It all began when I had to step in and step up by taking over the running of a new and rather foreign (as far as my expertise goes) department at work. Our business literally comprises of my husband and myself, and he had way too much on his plate, so I got the job! But, I was completely thrown into the deep end and was terrified of messing it up.
On the day of my first client visit, I was fraught with anxiety. After the meeting, I couldn’t stop re-playing each word said, over and over in my head. My insecure ‘self’ kept saying ‘I could have and should have done it better’, so when my phone rang, I was instantly relieved by the distraction. It was someone close to me, asking me to get together to pray with someone even closer to me. This someone had been living with hurt and rejection and brokenness all their life and finally had the courage to open-up. What a breakthrough!
I felt so excited. I knew that this would be an incredible opportunity for God to move.
I knew that if we called on God, He would show up and He would heal all that brokenness in a most profound and miraculous way.
I was now on my way to my monthly Forum meeting which would be a great place for me to off-load all my pressures and insecurities of work. Our Forum, which is made up of four ladies, have been praying and sharing life together for 5 years and I can honestly say that Forum is the single thing to have the greatest emotional and spiritual impact on my life!
It is a truly treasured space to be real and completely transparent, all in the safety of Gods love. We all need a space like this.
I was the last to arrive which added to my totally stressed out state of mind but once we started talking and sharing everything took on a new perspective. This was my safe place. A time and space where I can just be me, where I am encouraged for being me and where these three very special ladies project back to me, what they see God doing in me.
When it came my turn to share, everything just came gushing out. My stresses, my insecurities, my passions and my desires. They listened intently and then they shared their thoughts. I was flabbergasted when they described their impression of me when I arrived. They said that I carried an air of ‘being all grown up, totally confident and in control’. I had felt none of that, but God was bringing out a maturity in me that even I was not yet aware of or even comfortable with.
Next, I told them about the worship and prayer meetings that I wanted to start (this was the second time I had ever verbalized this) and their words and prayers were so alive and so encouraging. Words like ‘anointed’ and visions of a cross above my head, all affirmed what I believed God had been saying to me for so very long. My purpose had been set out before me and all I needed to do was trust God in the timing and the details of it all. And so, I started to feel grown up and mature and confident. In God, anything is possible if it is part of His purpose and His plan.
The next evening, I had the prayer meeting with that special someone, and what an incredibly blessed time it was. We began by playing a worship song and as the words washed over us, so the Spirit of God began to move and the tears began to flow and the wonderful process of healing began. It was so incredible to be a part of it. All I did was make a space for God to move – and move He did, in power and might. At one point, I felt led to pray over areas of bondage, where the enemy had had permission to dominate, and as the chains were broken, there was a tangible release into freedom and this was followed by uninhibited laughter in the spirit. It was the most beautiful thing to experience and it was so easy and so natural. No hype, no drama …. Just three people getting together to pray in the lounge – three people whose lives were radically impacted and changed because of that night.
And again, it reinforced the call on my heart. If we make ourselves available to Him, we can be a part of His plan which is to change lives and heal people from the inside out.