I was brought up to believe that I need to create my own success. That with enough determination and drive, I can achieve anything. That I am the author of my own destiny. That puts us under a lot of pressure! Especially if we were not created for success, or at least for what the world classifies as success.
As I sit in my ‘office’ which is really more like the landing on top of the stairs, I gaze out at a multitude of yellow flowers. These bushes are prolific in the Estate where we live and I have always found them rather cheerful and bright. But recently, I discovered that their nickname is the ‘tick bush’, because they are a favorite for ticks.
Just in case you are wondering, I have taken a small break from my ‘Two Minutes’ series just to elaborate on my last blog post ‘Living Positively. This post is going to be a little more spiritual than inspirational but it will be interesting for those who want to go deeper. Its like taking a bite of white chocolate and jelly tot chocolate. The outside is delicious but inside there are just so many more flavours going on.
It is so easy to think negatively! I am generally a very positive person – probably because I am mostly living in the clouds – but when reality hits …it really hits! For me, this comes in the form of pressure. And pressure is always intensified when there are time constraints. I am my own worst enemy here. I don’t like to be early – I see it as a waste of time because then you have to hang around waiting.
I was never a child with great confidence! My insecurities and desperate need for affirmation, followed me wherever I went. This is probably the very reason that I loved acting so much – I was more comfortable acting out someone else’s life and I loved receiving the applause for doing it.
Today, I am giving you a double wammy!!! Simply because I am struggling to get everything done before heading away for 10 days – so don’t be surprised by the quietness of this space. But most astounding of all, is how God intertwines his story into every aspect of our lives.